in my late teens, i occasionally had questions and at times felt quite alone. i didn’t know anyone else with aku. only when i started to have back problems in my twenties, did i start wanting more information. thanks to the internet, i found answers and eventually connected with other aku patients. sometimes, the information i found was upsetting and i was encouraged not to search, but i still wanted answers.
in 2007, i was living in north wales and i just happened to find the aku society, which was located in liverpool — a short train ride away. i met with one of the founders, robert gregory, and dr. lakshminarayan ranganath, an expert in aku. from there i was able to meet a handful of others with aku. since then, my network of patients with aku, and the professionals involved, has expanded substantially with contacts from around the world. everyone, patients and professionals, are supportive and welcoming to questions. i feel truly lucky to have been in the right place at the right time.
aku can be painful.
i certainly didn’t expect it to be as bad as it is.
i have a lot of pain. i have advanced degenerative disc disease [in my spine]. i’ve also got stenosis of the spine i’ve had for probably more than a decade. what didn’t help me was at 17 i injured my back so i have already had surgery on my lumbar spine. right now, the way my vertebrae are, a couple of them basically don’t have any disk left, so it’s bone on bone.
i also get a lot of sciatica as a result and excruciating restless leg syndrome. my hip also bothers me sometimes — i just had an injection in my hip to decrease the swelling. there are times where i can’t walk down the stairs because it’s just too painful, or days where i’m stuck in bed.
i have to be very careful how much i lift, and how i move.
there is no balance for me living with aku, so one of my goals is to improve that. being a mom and a wife with a rare disease means my energy goes to my kids and the house. that doesn’t always leave room for self-care or energy to socialize. i sometimes worry that i have to get things in now, like travelling, because this disease creates a lot of uncertainty about my future. i try not to think about that sometimes.