after several months of use, it became less effective, but she needed it.
“the pharmacy will only dispense it to you after 30 days, so you get 30 pills, and if you’re short, they won’t dispense it. so i think i was on the 28th day and i was like, oh, my god, i don’t have any. so i called the pharmacy. i was like, ‘hey, i need a refill.’” the pharmacist refused.
“we got into an argument and my pharmacist was very hostile with me. and he’s like, ‘you know, you’re drug-seeking.’ i started to cry. i said, ‘you don’t understand, i need to sleep.’ so that was very ugly. after that i was like, no, i’m just not going to do it anymore. i stopped taking them cold turkey.”
she’s not interested in medication and makes a conscious effort to appreciate the quiet and stillness of the long night hours when she’s awake.
how does she cope, really?
“i just do. i don’t have a choice. i would love nothing more than to just retire and live my life, but i can’t,” she says. “i just don’t want to go down the rabbit hole of dependency and that mania.”
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the first-line treatment recommended is cognitive behavioural therapy for insomnia (cbt-i). it is meant to help people restructure their thoughts, feelings and behaviours that are contributing to insomnia.